Response to Maya

In response to Maya’s post, it really do be like that sometimes. It’s so true that being lonely in college isn’t something that’s talked about a lot. It’s always about the independence or the workload or the different kinds of people you can meet. It’s sad but it makes sense that it’s harder to meet people in college. In high school, you’re surrounded by the same people for 8 hours a day, 5 days a week. The friends that you make are the ones around you, the people that you see most. At least for me, I was friends with some people just because it was convenient. High school is so exhausting, physically and mentally, that you just want to go home and sleep. It’s also hard to be lonely in high school because you’re living with your family. I don’t think there were many times where I was completely alone. But in college, it takes so much more effort to hang out with people. Last semester, I really tried to hang out with a lot of different people and I think everyone else was like that too. But now, everyone has their own friend groups and no one really makes the effort anymore. After coming back from winter break, it felt like I never left. I fell into a routine so quickly because I was already used to everything around me. Routine is comfortable but it can get boring and sometimes lonely too. Obviously there are times when I want to be alone but I find myself wanting to hang out with people and do something more than last semester. I’m definitely more comfortable with being alone but I’m still not really used to it. Idek what I’m saying. But Maya, walking along the river + bubble tea sounds like a great time so lmk if you ever want to hang out :)

On a different note, I hate my room. The window is now closed because the dust was just too much to handle. I freaking have a stye on my left eye because everything in our room is covered in dust, my bed + pillow included. Megan has been coughing up a storm and tbh, I think she had a fever. At first, we thought the cough was because of allergies or the dust but I think she’s been sick this whole time. I only think this because I woke up hella congested with a slight fever yesterday. These are the downsides of living in a tiny closet-like room. You really don’t appreciate your health until it’s taken away from you.

Love,

Crystal