Reading / Summer thoughts

I've been reading a lot recently, I used to read every night when I was a kid my parents and I would sit in our living room and just read together till I went to bed. I stopped when I realized TV was way better than books, but as I said I have picked up reading again. I started reading after deciding to take a break from video games for a little bit, I think I just played a lot of video games and it just lost a bit of that fun. I really enjoy reading though, it's interesting and quiet and I don't have to explain myself to other's while doing it. I always feel like people judge me when I want to play video games like its only something that children do, but reading now that is an adult activity and one that everyone can get behind. I think reading makes me a better thinker, I also think it makes me quieter, not significantly but like a little bit. I feel like I go through these reading spurts, especially over the summer, where I'll read a lot and then after that period ends it'll be months before I pick up another book. I hope that I can make reading a more regular part of my week, maybe it will make me a better person/listener who knows.

Summer is coming up, crazy how the first year flew by. Am I the only one who felt like first semester was a whole year ago? I definitely do not feel like the same person that I was when I got here in August, I'm not sure if I'm better or worse. Summer feels like exactly what I need right now, I need some time to rest and recharge I just feel so worn out. Also like 80% sure that most of my depression is seasonal, I just can't be happy in the winter, I hate the cold and I hate when there is no sun. I can't wait to go to the beach, it seems like one of the few places I truly feel relaxed and happy. I realized while writing this that this will either be my last blog post or my second to last blog post. I will not miss doing these weekly. Every Tuesday I would realize that I needed to do these and I would scream an expletive and start the multiple hour long process of trying to figure out what to write about. I am just not that interesting, there is not much that changes week to week for me. I thought this would be easy for me because of my how much enjoyment talking brings me but it does not. Thank you if you guys even read one of my posts it means a ton to me. Alright possibly for the last time.

Love you,

Cam